明知结局何必开始

《来自星星的你》是我听说很久了但一直没兴趣追的一部韩剧。偶然看了第一集,才发现原来不是一部因为主角长的帅才红的片子。剧情、拍摄、演技,真的好。

又是一段即将分别的情景,剩一个月了,干嘛开始?却又发现珍惜仅剩的时间。为了离别后没有眷恋,彻底的遗忘,想把能做的都做完。

流泪了才心想这到底哪里感人了?

想了想原来莹也曾经有段一个月的感情。暧昧了很久却在离别没多久前才开始的感情。从没后悔过那一个月,但第一次冒出来一个念头,如果当初压根没开始,我们现在还会是朋友吗?

这回儿对着我喊“莹莹”的人不多了。除了老婆常连名带姓叫着,家里人,包括在台湾的舅舅阿姨,都管喊Sarah。交往快四年这没有codename的他没受中文教育,虽然习惯用昵称,期待他叫我一字“莹”还挺困难的。

是否太贪心了?享受快成年的稳重,却向往初恋的甜蜜。

唉,甭理我。夜深了总想着一些有的没的,想念不该想念的人。

老婆、我与大海

老婆与海

老婆与海。还是自拍比较漂亮。

实在没很喜欢wordpress的settings。怎么搞的,要format文章比microsoft word还麻烦多。Anyways,说重点。

老婆和老师来玩是一个月前的事情了。有点像一场梦。每天睡前计划隔天去哪儿,怎么去;租了车子要去远点的地方也开gps跟着走。很轻松的一次旅行。

到后来才想起,忘了要去吃pancake,忘了泳衣合照。

老师一直埋怨我们年轻就把世界玩完了,我想,我们都害怕没机会吧。突然就过新年了,我们在一起的第12个年头。跟朋友倒数的时候,他们互相嘲笑mid-mid life crisis。重点不是太多计划,而是没了梦想吧?

midnight post

临睡前在Facebook上看到Love & Life的朋友post的照片,虽然只是吃饭的模样我却能想起和她吃饭,她的习惯和动作。突然发现自己很想念一起生活的那7天。于是post了这么一个status:
“Love and life的朋友们,我是当真想念你们了。睡不着觉回想一天天发生的事,好笑的还是笑了,感动得还会鼻酸。还记得你们的拥抱和歌咏,够我回味很久很久。
其他朋友常质疑自己把整整7天(还不加前后的筹备善后)交出,给天主、给营员,会不会太傻?我只能说,没有比这更值得做的事情了。”
 
一觉醒来看到夜猫子朋友给我留言,我一边吹头发一边大笑。
很多时候不是我想隐瞒,只是不同的感觉得用不同的语言抒发。
#perksofbeingmultilingual
 
“To my friends from Love and Life… I miss y’all. Was just trying to fall asleep and started musing on all that happened in camp. As each incident came to mind, I laughed and sniffed in turn. The memories of your hugs and singing will stay w me for a long, long time *warm fuzzy feeling*
 
My other friends always asked if I don’t feel like it’s a risk, taking a whole week off from school/work (dear colleagues reading this, pls don’t tell boss) in return for what? But truly I say to you, there is hardly anything more meaningful than this.”
 
And also a shoutout to Mark and Shaun.. Thanks for taking the time to Google Translate. Provided me w enough laughs to last through a slow Friday at work.
 
I admit that this year I wasn’t as “into” camp before I went.. I decided to facilitate only because I thought I could provide assistance where necessary. And I did not bother trying to get close to anyone except my ‘lil ones’.. Prickly old bat wasn’t I? Yet somehow people made their way to my heart and memory, just by being there. And yes Shaun, I thought I’ve turned cynical, thinking that it won’t last, but in the end it would, right? People change, as do all things, but ‘Love’ and ‘Life’ IS Eternal. Maybe I’ll just grow up next time XD

My 22nd Christmas

I do not know how to express this, but thank you God, for Christmas this year.

For the lovely cantata and the chance to praise you w my (mediocre) music skills. And the power disruption resulting in Father Andrew, the choir and the cantor singing to no music, and being fairly in tune! The courage they showed was just amazing.

For the time spent in a simple meal w my family in our Sunday best. Thank You for our daily bread, instead o good and rich food you know we don’t need.

For my family and their generosity. Didn’t know the family Christmas Day open house tradition went all the way back to days of rubber estate and home cooked dishes. Feeling much loved by their actions.

For the new additions to the family, Baby Hannah and “Big Boy” Eli, who reminded us of innocent times and simple words (“green! red! yellow!” instead of “torquise! maroon! peach!”). And the new members of the Love and Life family. I’m glad You gave me the chance to facilitate again! Thank you so much for bringing these wonderful people into my life, and for reminding me who You are.

Most of all thank you God, for loving us. “Into the darkness, You shine
Out of the ashes, we rise
There’s no one like You
None like You

Our God is greater
Our God is stronger
God, You are higher than any other
Our God is healer
Awesome in power
Our God, our God” -“Our God” Chris Tomlin

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